A New Season

There is a natural flow to all things.  The world we live in has a rhythm. An ebb and flow.  We are flowing from Summer into Fall and it's a beautiful transition to witness.  It's a free flowing zone where the right things happen at the right time. This is the zone I am in right now.  (For the moment, as a "student" I continue to take two steps forward and three steps back!)  So before I step back, ha ha, I want to share some thoughts on this topic.  Words, ideas & raw emotions are fresh and dashing through my mind like electric currents of inspiration....It is, by the way, why I write.

 My life has taken such a turn for the better in the past few years.  From the depths of despair, fear and self-pity, I have put on my finest pair of big girl panties and really turned my life around.  In so many ways, hitting "rock bottom" was such a blessing.  How else would I have found out what I'm really made of?  How else, except being brought to tears and rocking myself into a state of calm could I have the depth of compassion that I now have?  How else, than to be caught stealing money from my six year old son to buy  groceries could I know the burn of shame and feel the switch of conviction, that gut-twisting thought that screams "Enough is enough!"  All of these past experiences and so called "hardships" were really such a necessary and now cherished part of my journey.  Trust me though, reader, I hardly thought that at the time.  I never once thought, "Wow, this being broke and depressed and feeling like a massive failure is going to make a great story someday!"  Not while you're in it.  Remember, hind sight is always 20/20.

Those days, which are only two years behind me, are quite fresh and vivid.  Those experiences  pushed me to look at a "new way of being."  I used to be very attached to one way of thinking.  Things were right, or they were wrong.  I went through life very tightly wound and very much a believer that I was in control.  There was no ease or trust  in my world.  There was no success without giving up something dear to obtain it.  There was no way to "have it all" and find success, happiness, peace and still keep my sanity.  I lived in a world of either/ or.  There was never both. These beliefs were false and very limiting, but it took some soul searching to truly "get it."

Working with our company and  throwing my soul into the ring of "personal journey" has been the most exciting, inspiring, life-affirming decision I've ever made!  I feel so inspired some days that I write and speak and connect with people and the words I say and write feel as though they are coming directly from a higher place and passing through me- I am just the vehicle and they flow easily and peacefully, without a hesitation or blip from me.  This type of life, this "living on purpose" is what I am asking you, as the reader, to be open to.  This place of questioning- do you love your life?  Are you jazzed to get up in the am and make a difference in the world?  Do you feel powerful enough to make a difference?  Is your life a contribution to others?  Are you proud of who you have become?  These are soulful questions and sometimes it's just easier to not go there and stay in our small world of "comfortably miserable" or it's sister, "blissfully numb."   You know who you are- out there, living way within your comfort zone.  There is no judgement, there's just the question- "Is that all you really think you are?"

Listen, I was living my life from a place of being stuck for a long time.  I stayed in neutral and let life "happen" to me.  I had some moments of happiness, I was not a sad sack, no one knew my inner world was one of anxiety and a longing for more, something more.  My issue?  I did not know what that "something" was.  Now I do.  The personal growth that I have done through network marketing and our company has given  me clarity.  Ready?  It's big....


I wanted to make a difference in the world.  I wanted my life to have left the world a better place than if I had never been born.

Wow.  Isn't that so simple.  Yet, for me, it was profound.  My journey has also led me to understand on a deeper level the difference between being a "people pleaser" and contributing to the lives of others.  I no longer have to be liked by everyone to feel good about myself.  I've learned to care about my own opinion of myself, rather than everyone's opinion of me.  I would rather speak the truth to move a person's life forward, than say the "easy" answer and have that person continue to struggle.  We are all on this journey together and it makes sense to help one another whenever the opportunity presents itself.

I am currently reading an excellent book called, "The Compassionate Samurai" by Brian Klemmer.  Reading is my favorite way to learn and expand my thinking and flow into the next stage of my journey.  Mr. Klemmer has me fully engaged in this concept- a "compassionate samurai" means someone with strong values who can absolutely make anything happen and yet whose whole life is about service.  Think about that for a moment.

He states, "The balance of warrior and compassion is perhaps the most perfect union, combining the enjoyment of outward success with a feeling of integrity and peace.

Everyday I am grateful for the life I live- it is truly the life of my dreams. It's a work in progress and everyday I expand my awareness and vision of my future.  My growth will never stop, there is no "end" or "destination"- there are only higher levels of peace and success. 

Today, ask yourself some questions.  Is your life where you want it to be?  How can you change that?  What steps could you take, right now, that would move you towards being the person you know want to be.  Every moment in our lives is a new opportunity to take on a "new way of being."


I welcome the Fall and the changing of seasons...what will flow into your life this season?

Enjoying the journey,
Jenna